"It's no surprise to me
I am my own worst enemy
'Cause every now and then
I kick the living shit out of me."
-- Lit, "My Own Worst Enemy"
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“Struggle is proof that you haven't been conquered,
that you refuse to surrender,
that victory is still possible,
and that you're growing.”
-- Jon Walden
"Those who say life is knocking them down and giving them a tough time
are usually the first to beat themselves up. Be on your own side.”
“I will no longer mutilate and destroy myself
in order to find a secret behind the ruins.”
-- Hermann Hesse
I have good news, and I have bad news.
The good news is, the sleep restructuring program is working, and it is working well.
The bad news is, it would be working even better if I didn't keep getting in my own way.
Why do I do that?
Why do I continue with behaviors and habits that I know have a direct negative effect on my progress?
Why can't I follow a few clear, simple rules?
Why can't I just do all the right stuff?
Why do I repeatedly sabotage my own hard work?
Why do I stand in my own way?
Why do I beat myself up when I fail, instead of picking myself up and trying to do better in the next round?
I've said it before and I'll say it again, I am my own worst enemy.
That's why I have the phrase "Don't let me get me" tattooed on the inside my left arm.
It's me vs. me in a no-holds-barred fight to the death.
Well, it ain't over 'til it's over.
Today is a new day. A new round.
Win, lose or draw, I will keep fighting.