“Those who say life is knocking them down and giving them a tough time
are usually the first to beat themselves up.”
-- Rasheed Ogunlaru
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| Self portrait 6-14-13 |
"Do you know who it is you are destroying here? It is yourself.”
-- Victor Hugo, Ninety-Three
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| Self portrait (2) 6-14-13 |
"Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy."
I'm my own worst enemy."
-- P!nk, "Don't Let Me Get Me"
Aaah, self-destructive tendencies.Maybe you don't fight 'em, but I do.
I knock myself down.
I hold myself back.
I push myself under.
I battle myself.
I disappoint myself.
I hurt myself.
I self-sabotage.
I feel like I am my own worst enemy.
Like I am crushing myself in my own grip.
Often I feel completely powerless to defend myself against myself and the stupid shit that I do to myself.
I am my harshest critic when I should be my own feistiest cheerleader.
God knows there are plenty of soul-crushing forces out there that are beyond my control. So why am I so hopelessly prone to pile on and add to my own misery?
If someone else talked to me the way I talk myself, I'd like to think I'd have the self respect to walk away.
But how do you walk away from yourself?
